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Weak & Divine

by FEYXUAN

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    All proceeds from the sale of tapes go to Answer Detroit:
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    "We are a group of sex workers who created ANSWER Detroit in the summer of 2019 because we were really fucking ready to decriminalize sex work. We founded ANSWER with the belief that decriminalization is only one piece of the juicy liberation we deserve; as sex workers and as humans just trying to survive capitalism.

    Therefore, we created five focus areas for our work. In creating these focus areas, we set the intention for organic community growth that aligns with our collective vision:

    POLITICAL POWER BUILDING
    MEDIA & EDUCATION
    CULTURE & CREATING ARTS
    HEALTH, HOUSING, LEGAL SUPPORT
    HEALING & WELLNESS"

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1.
A bird is a bird is a worm, upon the firmament of the kingdom of heaven. I hold heaven firm. And I will not be the worm.
2.
[INTRO] Medicine is not a place where the ill can thrive. Only the strong survive. Pity he couldn’t meet the demands. That man had the Lord’s hands. [CHORUS] I am Lord of the Butterflies, Lord of the Moths-Who-Have-Eyes. I am WEAK&DIVINE, not meek, but sublime, and in time, you all shall see true divinity. [VERSE 1] Oh we, oh woe? You see me, how pitiable? Because I am indeed a man whose fleet- footed days are behind him, not due so much to age but to the rage of such divine entities as that I claim? [CHORUS] I am Lord of the Butterflies, Lord of the Moths-Who-Have-Eyes. I am WEAK&DIVINE, not meek, but sublime, and in time, you all shall see true divinity. [VERSE 2] Oh, darling, see, this little thing about me, it’s sheer luck, as you’ll have it. That I got sick. That there was no getting better, No charm, no tincture, no have-you-ever, only management. Chronic as Chronus. I did nothing to deserve this, I know I am worth this, And so much more beyond the door: These mortal gates, they are but the first floor To the kingdom of heaven. [CHORUS] I am Lord of the Butterflies, Lord of the Moths-Who-Have-Eyes. I am WEAK&DIVINE, not meek, but sublime, and in time, you all shall see true divinity. [VERSE 3] I do not speak of CHRIST when I speak of heaven. I am not your brethren, you for whom singular God is a man. God damn, I am not a man. But Amadeus Vu, aren’t you, and haven’t you always been, a gentleman? You can only say that if you say I’m free of sin, and to speak of sin, is to speak of God-He, not God-Me, And darling dears, I will be the only God that matters. Look at Her, in the heavens, look at Her, Amadeus-She, and Seven, Seven, Severin. [CHORUS] I am Lord of the Butterflies, Lord of the Moths-Who-Have-Eyes. I am WEAK&DIVINE, not meek, but sublime, and in time, you all shall see true divinity. [OUTRO] The heart of the kingdom of heaven, I will win.
3.
[CHORUS] Who are you, who are you, I am a man who will become God. [FIRST VERSE] No, not Christ--who is Christ to a man raised Buddhist? God, God, I say, in the same way some people say Human, it is a species; some people become Human, I will become God. [CHORUS] Who are you, who are you, I am a man who will become God. [SECOND VERSE] To become divine, you have to bring God inside you. No, not through fucking, though that is one form of possession, Through consumption. What do the Christians do? The wine is the blood of Christ, and the bread his flesh? [CHORUS] Who are you, who are you, I am a man who will become God. [THIRD VERSE] A snake once said, The kingdom of god is within you because you ate it. So I’ll eat the kingdom of god. What else could you call the folk who live on this earth? [CHORUS] Who are you, who are you, I am a man who will become God.
4.
[UTENA SAMPLE] [ENG AFTER] If it cannot break its egg's shell, a chick will die without being born. [AMADEUS: chorus] There is one thing not like the others, whose mother was not like their mothers, and whose egg came out cracked, shattered in a way you’ll never get back. [AMADEUS: verse 1] It came to be that I learned early on No-one could understand me. And the ones who tried, oh how they denied what nature they didn’t want to see. Oh me, oh me, Am I worthy? Of god? Of course. If you come to worship-- The only god I’ll worship is in my come. Do you see me? Do you know I could not run? Did you know I was but one? And I was the best of them. [AMADEUS: chorus] There is one thing not like the others, whose mother was not like their mothers, and whose egg came out cracked, shattered in a way you’ll never get back. [UTENA SAMPLE] [ENG AFTER] If it cannot break its egg's shell, a chick will die without being born. [AMADEUS: verse 2] You have to swallow the kingdom of god To become holy, you have to swallow it wholly. And what is a kingdom if not the folk of this air? The folk so very fair, The folk over there. It used to be them, but oh, wicked, clever darling, it used to be them, but now it is you. [TEMPO SHIFT - romantic and dreamy] [SEVERIN: verse 3] You receive nourishment at the sight of me. The same as when you taste divinity. I do, Amadeus says, What about you? What about me? What do you want me to say, that I wanted it to be this way? that I would make a shoddy Chevalier, because the reason why the Rosebloods and the forgotten Folk so very Fair all the Folk of the Air, have gone missing is you. God, I knew. I knew. Amadeus smiles. [VICIOUS INTONATION] What now will you do when you cannot forgive, you cannot pity, and you cannot save? Oh, I know you, I know how you crave to remember the forgotten, to seek out what is sodden with the guilt you have for Seeing. You could not See me until I let you, because even if you knew, you knew, it’s not the same as me telling you. [REPRISE OF 1. SNAKE HEAD MOTH END TENSION EFFECT] [SEVERIN] I’ll love you, I’ll love you. [AMADEUS] Can you love a monster, Severin Lacandola? [SEVERIN] I’ll love a monster. [AMADEUS: chorus] There is one thing not like the others, whose mother was not like their mothers, and whose egg came out cracked, shattered in a way you’ll never get back. [UTENA SAMPLE] [ENG AFTER] If it cannot break its egg's shell, a chick will die without being born.

about

April 16, 2021: FEYXUAN aka Xuan Nguyen (they/them) is a musical artist from Detroit, Michigan and is a Gr collective member. Though since this EP, they’ve branched out into a fey orchestral music niche, they do intend to someday come back to the stageplay-esque vocal stylings of this WEAK & DIVINE EP. In their inner circles, this EP is referred to as the Amadeus EP, since it is derived from the Amadeus Vu songs from their libretto, THE FAIRIES SING EACH TO EACH (Feb 2021, Flower Press). A libretto, they’ve been told, is the narrative writing for an opera, which sounds a bit better than the “stageplay-lyricbook-musical” which they’d been going with before.

Amadeus Vu is a queer, transgender, and disabled man who will become Empress of Heaven, though the way he constructs his narrative of gender is to use he/him during his life as a mortal and she/her only after she ascends. The songs in this EP showcase a few of his most vulnerable moments as a mortal and what drives his divine obsession. I know obsession is a term used lightly (the oxymoron of people saying they are “mildly obsessed” with a Netflix show or something, when they do not mean it is so extremely consuming that the fabric of themselves is woven into the obsession), but on the other end of the spectrum, psychiatry has no place in the formulation of Amadeus Vu. You cannot say Amadeus Vu is evil and call it a day. Neither can you say she has done nothing wrong. In the last song of the EP, he says, “What now will you do when / you cannot forgive, you cannot pity, and you cannot save?” Traumatized people are either seen as helpless innocents or conniving villains. Either you have no agency, or you do the wrong things with your agency. Either way, the narrative is taken from you. Amadeus Vu is a traumatized individual who is the creator of her own myth, seizing her origin story from her abuser, and also seizing it from all that would seek to view her through a reductive lens of absolute, binary morality.

If there’s one thing you get from WEAK & DIVINE, Amadeus’s EP, I hope you get that narratives of traumatized people are massively complex, and our stories are never so simple as the world might want you to think.

Artist receives 75% of all proceeds of digital only sales. The remaining 25% supports Grimalkin's label and mutual aid fund and helps us towards sustaining our work.

All proceeds from the sale of tapes go to Answer Detroit:
answerdetroit.org
"We are a group of sex workers who created ANSWER Detroit in the summer of 2019 because we were really fucking ready to decriminalize sex work. We founded ANSWER with the belief that decriminalization is only one piece of the juicy liberation we deserve; as sex workers and as humans just trying to survive capitalism.

Therefore, we created five focus areas for our work. In creating these focus areas, we set the intention for organic community growth that aligns with our collective vision:

POLITICAL POWER BUILDING
MEDIA & EDUCATION
CULTURE & CREATING ARTS
HEALTH, HOUSING, LEGAL SUPPORT
HEALING & WELLNESS"

All proceeds from the sale of lathes fund physical releases of other artists on Grimalkin Records. We break even if all of them sell.
grimalkinrecords.bandcamp.com

credits

released April 16, 2021

written, produced and recorded by FEYXUAN
feyxuan.bandcamp.com

Produced in FL Studio 20
Sound effects obtained from www.zapsplat.com
Music Box & Celesta from Necromare
Sounds By Vilkas Sound: youtu.be/BIXH3I6NzB4
Moths-Who-Have-Eyes features Hazel Nightengale as Severin

mixed and mastered by Nancy Grim Kells
graphic design and artwork by FEYXUAN

Thank you to my Wigglers who have supported me so dearly throughout the entire construction of the whole personal multimedia franchise that THE FAIRIES SING EACH TO EACH has become. Thank you to Percy, who beta’d the TFSETE libretto for me! Thank you to Grim, who so kindly and patiently helped me with all the trouble of mastering (and it was a lot of trouble from my end!) Thank you to Mabel, who was the person who made me realize music was a thing I could do, because it’s something I know I’ll do for the rest of my life. Love you all!

Huge thanks to Louis and MFED for premiering this album and for interviewing Fey: www.mesenceintesfontdefaut.com/2021/04/16/interview-premiere-feyxuan-weak-divine-album/

Huge thanks to Liam and Various Small Flames for premiering the single Lord of the Butterflies for us: varioussmallflames.co.uk/2021/03/19/feyxuan-lord-of-the-butterflies/

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